Siti Maryam Kaman

2009-10-28T11:43:00.001+08:00

I have been very busy lately. Sometimes I feel that I am able to catch up with my work. Everyday, I is a new day with new problems, work etc while still having yesterday's work, yesterday yesterday's work to complete. I am scared I could not cope and will disappoint many people. I am scared I will not do a good job. I feel that I got some expectations I have to fulfil which have not been fulfiled and I am taking a long time to reach that expectation.

Sigh...

Wish me luck!!!

2009-01-23T17:39:00.002+08:00

2009-01-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

Finally I am officially 21 years old...

Alvin Liow was the FIRST to wish me. CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Here are some msges I received:

Kamilah (My lovely Cousin)
Kak Siti!!! Hap-hap-happy 21st birthday! Woohoo! Nt a teenager anymore! But still can act childish k. =) haha. Btw, all de best in everything you do. Hope u get ur car license soon so u cn drive me and mar to the place. Haha. Jkjk. Enjoy today! Woohoo! =)

Katherine (My Beloved Girlfriend)
Happy 21st birthday to my beloved Maryam! I'm so happy to know you in my poly years.. It's been so much fun with you.. Always stay so cheerful and wish that all your dreams come true! Muack!

Raihanah (My Everlasting Girlfriend)
Hey Maryam.. Happy 21st birthday.. May your wishes come true on this special occasion.. Take care..

Kamaryah (My Baby Sister)
Happi b'day Kak Siti! Hope 2day bring you happiness and luck.

Kaman (My Cool Dad)
Happy Birthday. Dont worry be happy.

Cindy (My Pinky Colleague)
Happieeeeee birthdayyyyyy

Meijun (My Funny Cooking Mate)
Hey hey good morning! Happy Birthday to you!! =))

Nicholas Soon (My Blushy Dream Boyfriend)
Happy birthday!

Sufen (My Sweety Pie)
Happy birthday babe! Stay happy always! You know i still love you even if I might be spending lesser time with you =)

Jenny (My Favourite Girl)
Happy bday my dear Maryam..Muacks! May your wishes cum true..

Dawn (My Sweetheart)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARYAM! May all your wishes and dreams come true! Muacks! Loves! =)

Suriani (My Funky Aunty)
Happy 21st Birthday CT, may all your wishes come true...Cheers!

Joyce and Jon (My Crazily-in-love Couple)
Happy 21st birthday Maryam! Enjoy your special day with your loved ones alrights? Love ya babe! With love, joyce and jon.

Alex (My Ex-Hubby)
Hey maryam. I know I may be one of the latest to wish you a happy birthday, but better late than never, ya? Haha. Here's wishing you a happy 21st birthday. U have been an amazing friend to me, and although we havent met in a really long time, u're still the one of my best friend in my heart. May your journey as an adult be filled with excitement and surprises and lots of happiness. =). The road will surely be tougher now, but u're tougher than what will be thrown at you. All the best in everything you do. Take care and happy birthday!! Lots of love, Alex.

Thank you so much for your well wishes!!! =))

2008-12-25T20:03:00.008+08:00

More F-U-N from the girls!!!

The Girls always have lotsa F-U-N!!!

Anuar, Aisyah, Radhiah

Siti Kamaryah, Maryam, Marhamah Kaman

Zakiah, Zahidah, Kamilah and Kamil

2008-12-24T13:00:00.001+08:00

IIT Admin Team

The Christmas Log Cake.

Me and Cindy

Ting Hong, Me and Emily

Me and Siew Peng

Me and Bro Ting Hong

Hayati, Salwa (Our lovely and sweet intern) and Me

We are the Management Support Officer

Me and Mummy Linda (Coincidentally, she is my angel and I am her angel.)

Me and Sis Hayati

2008-11-21T17:42:00.002+08:00

We have a usual eating place. Isnt that cool??

2008-11-21T17:40:00.000+08:00

2008-11-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

I hate it whenever you try to hold my hand.
I hate it whenever you whisper to my ears.
I hate it whenever you purposely get closer to me.
I hate it whenever you call me “my sweetheart”.
I hate the way you walk.
I hate the way you look at me.
I hate the way you eat.
I hate the way you stand.
Just really really hate you by my side…

2008-11-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

...The Important Friends I Cant Live Without...

2008-11-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

2008-11-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

My girlfriend…
That stupid Jing was late again. She made me wait for her for 30mins. Hahahahaha..

She was telling me why I was making a fuss out of 30mins. She told me I never change and still the same bossy slut I was.

We went PS to get my body scrub and body spray at Body Shop. Then we went to Diaso to go…CRAZY. I dunno how many thing that stupid girl buy.

She finally broke up with her Moron BF last month…I wasn’t there to congratulate her. I hate her moron bf because he’s such a moron, just a moron.

He took money from her, took her first kiss from her, took her favourite girlfriend away from her…I was just glad that he didn’t take her VIRGIN away.

We sit down at Delifrance to chit chat for a long long long time. We got many stories to tell from her rwork to my work, from her bf to my “bf”, from her family to my family…lots of stories!!!

Love Jing jing….

2008-10-30T20:00:00.000+08:00

The day you came back till today…Im still shocked! When we were far apart, I want you close to me. When we are close together, I want you far from me. Sometimes, I dun understand what I actually want. Be close to you or be far from you.

I just hope one day I’ll find my answer…for I dun wanna decide.

2008-10-23T20:00:00.000+08:00

2008-10-15T20:00:00.000+08:00

We went to Apek’s house for Hari Raya’s Gathering. OMG…Apek is now super fit and trim. Very muscular but….

Not as muscular as his friend. I was introduced to his guy. Its Iqah’s friend, Dan. Very Chinese looking, very tall, very quiet type and most importantly, very cute.

I dunno why when we were introduced, I sat there talking to him. Talking and talking and talking until I realized that I didn’t meet the rest of my friends.

So…they kept teasing me saying that I like this guy la, I ignore them when I see this guy la, blah blah blah…Seriously, I think this guy is really cute and sweet. He looked as if he doesn’t talk a lot but he is very interesting to talk to, very engaging.

Iqah told me something that told me to get away from him…He just broke up with his 1yr4mths GF.

I was like…SHUT UP…I was enjoying this guy…

2008-10-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

I went out with Lee today. We went shopping for his wallet. One thing about Lee, he is never branded. So its like any shop that sells wallet will do. I hate to shop that way. It is because I am person who like to shop. If I dun have specific place to go to buy what I want I will end up buying something else.

For example, we went to BHG first to see what wallet they offering but ended up we bought my bracelet. Hahhaahhah. We went CDs shop to get some movie that he desperately wants to watch but ended up buy Desperate Housewives series…

Talking about movie, Lee is a guy who follows the rules. I would have just download the movie from somewhere or watch it online. But, Lee will go and waste money to buy the movie. I mean how silly. I cant watch desperate housewives online but he has to buy the series in DVDs. Like OMG…!!!

Nevertheless, I love him as much as he loves me. Muacks!!!

2008-10-01T20:00:00.001+08:00

I realized one thing…every morning of Hari Raya is different from other mornings. It is so peaceful and calm. Very unique morning…

I started my morning by setting up the dining table. When my dad came home, we prepared ourselves to seek for forgiveness. Breakfast was fast as we have to rush to granny’s house.

I answered a few questions at every house to different people:
* Im working now
* I just graduated this year
* Im working in school
* Im still single
* Im going for further studies next year
* Im taking Business Management
etc etc etc

I love Hari Raya…it is a day where everyone get together to celebrate and enjoy. Its like a sincere and meaningful obligation for everyone to make…=))

2008-09-23T20:00:00.000+08:00

I was rushing whole morning.
I have to buy the presents and get the cake. I was lucky that Adik decide to follow me or else I will die. I spent a bit of time at the perfume shop, a bit of time at BHG and a bit of time at Montip. I really dun have time to go other places to get the presents as I need to rush home to help my mum cook. I promised her if she agreed to cook for that day. I will give her my full energy support.

Long tot that the whole family is just gathering to break fast at our home. She tot that it was a coincident that everyone decide to gather together on the same day. I was glad that she was that absent minded.

After sembahyang terawih…SURPRISED!!
She was seriously overwhelmed by the surprised as she didn’t think that we are celebrating her birthday today.

I think that birthday was one of the successful surprised birthday I have ever planned.

2008-09-12T20:00:00.000+08:00

Guess what….

I REBONDED MY HAIR!!!

I was very reluctant to do anything on my hair as I am afraid that my BEAUTIFUL hair spoilt or something. However, I was FINALLY convinced.

It was a great experience to just sit there, for 3 long hours and practically do NOTHING! The whole time was like “Boredom Invasion”. I tried to read something but wasn’t at all feeling comfortable. I also tried to sleep but could close my eyes. I sat there and rot while they did my hair.

In conclusion, I really like my new hair. I like my new look. I felt neater but it really sucks not able to wash your hair for 3 days.

My family could not take it at first because they tot that it was a huge change and too much to handle.

I cant to show Bestie my new look. I wonder how he will react.

2008-09-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

On the 10th September 2008.

Temasek Human Resource Department confirmed that I have been successfully converted in Temasek IIT School Full Time Staff.

I was very happy. I was asked to immediately sign the contract. However, I need to get a medical check up to confirm that I am physically and mentally healthy to work. Thus, I decide to postpone my conversion to 2 Oct.

I am sooo super happy to be able to get a job. Now, I have to worry when I am going to start my school. I cant wait to get a degree.

2008-09-09T16:39:00.003+08:00

TBC 1st Day

Frankly, I am very jealous of them. I can neither plan a camp nor attend a camp. That is freaking sad! I am now a working adult. NO MORE CAMPS!

At present, I wish I am in school again. I dun want to work. I want to attend school and feel like a student all over again.

But...

I have to be practical and sensible. The world dun revolve around me only. I have got my parents, aunties and sisters to support in future. If I dun start thinking about what I am going to do now to help my future, it will be all too late.

YES! It sucks to see them running around enjoying themselves in the camp. Just endure.

I remember. One of those people used to be ME. Either a camper or organizer. Camp is super tiring. NO doubt. However, at the same time, it is also FUN! It is a time where the committee have to come together to put up a GREAT CAMP. That's a challenge but it all spells FUN!

Now I have a qns in my mind...

Do I miss the FUN I had in camps? or Do I miss the Popularity I had in camps?

My answer....BOTH!

Whatever it is, I miss camps...

2008-09-06T16:17:00.005+08:00

The truth about ME

Tired! Tired! Tired!

Since I started work, I get lethargic very easily. Work is pretty occupying. I refused to make time for my friends. I dun wanna go out. I just wanna go home. Bleahs!

It is not about spending time with my family. I am just tired. YES! I agree that everyone is also tired but they still wanna GET A LIFE! It's my fault that my life is a routine now. It's my fault that I am beginning to lost touch with my close girlfriends. I really have no one to blame except MYSELF!

There maybe another reason why I refused to go out and just head HOME. Money! I got no money. I have spent my entire July salary on new clothes, new shoes and new perfume. I blew a totally of $800++. Sigh! But.....Nope! I dun regret my actions. I want the new clothes, new shoes and new perfume. I wanna look good and presentable at work.

2008-09-04T16:32:00.001+08:00

Last Thursday, I had an interview. I want to be converted into permanent staff in Temasek IIT School. I really wanna thank everyone who were very supportive of me. It was my first formal interview. YES! I was nervous. But I think I did quite well.

I cant wait to tell Alvin about it. I hope he is doing well in Thailand.

I took time off so I went home to get more rest. I was feeling sick last night due to my flu.

2008-08-29T18:04:00.005+08:00

29 August 2008

A day to celebrate!!

It has been a long time I suppose. What to do?? I told you Im a lazy blogger. However, I still want to keep my blog in case I got anything "GREAT" to blog about.

Today I think there's a call for celebration. Hhahahaha.

Let me introduced to you my colleague from IIT General Office.

If you have colleagues like them, I dun think you would consider a change of job. They are simply adorable. They make me feel so comfortable within days. They are super kind and funny. They really care for me. Muacks! =))

Cindy Birthday

Today is also Cindy Birthday. Hhhaha. We just had cake. =PP Nevermind. Most importantly, we managed to have a little bit of fun together.

Alice in Action

After days of preparation, finally, the actual event. In the morning we made last minute touch up. Later, Cecilia and I went to do registration. Not much work! Lastly, we eat the food. Hhahahaha! Sounds like very easy and relaxing. Its because we already worked hard for the past days...Bleahs!!!

2008-07-02T09:47:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time since Micheal and I met. It was a bit awkward for me because we were never in good terms. We will always fight and argue, always in loggerheads.

After seeing him today, it definitely brought back some memories.

Some memories, we choose to avoid...
Some memories, we choose to remember...

Memories that we choose to avoid, doesnt mean those memories are bad...
Memories that we choose to remember, doesnt mean those memories are good...

When I met Micheal, I asked myself..

Why I wanna relive the past when I cant even treasure the present?

The past is history,
The future is mistery,
The present is a gift...

2008-06-27T14:06:00.000+08:00

Facebook Quizzz...

My Kiss...

My Boyfriend...

I will be a Good Wife...

My Condom Colour...

My Hollywood Husband...

My Hollywood Boyfriend...

Loving Someone...

2008-06-26T14:47:00.001+08:00

My Sixth Sense...

Im very attracted to goog smell. Not necessarily perfume smell, it could be soap smell. I dun like body smell or no smell...Hahahahhaha
____________________________________________________________________

My Dream Partner...

I believe...
There isnt a need for an ocassion or any reason in getting a gift for your loved ones.

2008-06-17T15:18:00.000+08:00

Im In Love With You...

That's something that he always fail to see.

2008-06-02T11:55:00.002+08:00

I have applied for SIM, Bachelor in Computing and Information Systems. I went for a job interview. I had my graduation ceremony. Finally IITSC MC for AY2008/2009 has been chosen. All the best!!

2008-04-07T15:52:00.002+08:00

Orientation Leaders Training Camp

I was blessed with a wonderful empire, Ares. They have been very supportive and enthusiastic group of people. I was also blessed with a adorable FA partner, Marcus Chen. He is a good friend and great partner.

2008-03-31T16:13:00.000+08:00

Temasek Dinner and Dance 2008

In the morning, I was still busy sleeping. In afternoon, collect my dress, go to the salon to do my hair and make up. The hairdresser complained that I got too much hair. Later, Dawn and Berlinda came to do their make up with the help of my mum and sister. Sufen came all dressed up. I too got ready. At about 6 plus, Katherine came with her dad who is going to send us to The Regent Hotel.
When we reached, everyone was already there. I was a bit sad because, when I registered at the counter, I got to know that I was separated from Dawn and Sufen. Luckily, someone agreed to change with Sufen so she gets to sit with me.
The halal food served was not that fantastic, alright only. The host was also not really interesting. The performance was great. The fashion show was well done. Overall, I did enjoyed myself. I LOVE the photo taking. Fun! Fun!
I had to go off early...Bleahs!

2008-02-21T21:57:00.028+08:00

Trip to Bintan

Food is not a problem. Delicious pastries and cake. Simple dessert.

The Beach and Us

Dramatic Waves. Clear Beach. Cooling Water. Warm Sand.

Everyone loves to smile for camera.

Smile Everyone. Cheezzz!!!

Family Heaven: Being aroung each other..

We play. We pose. We smile. We HAD FUN!!

Man or Woman. Boy or Girl. Young or Old.

Everyone was at Bintan to rawk the place.

We have many ways to enjoy ourselves.

Cousins together forever.

Girls/Woman on a Mission.

Siblings bonding always.

A chance to be stuck to one another.

Spacious Rooms for all.

Group Photo.

Family Love in the air.

HURRAY!!!

Family comes first!!

2008-02-20T15:46:00.007+08:00

Cousins Having Fun Together

2008-02-13T10:56:00.007+08:00

Beautiful Red Roses

2008-02-08T10:44:00.000+08:00

It is confirmed that I am going to stay till the end of February. However, I am going to have a different job scope. No more IT Admin, very little of STEP Installation and more of Winquote Testing.

It is Winqoute Training Day. We have to go to another department to know Winquote. We were told what to test for Winquote. Since I am the only one not familiar with Winquote, I was very lost.

Winquote Testing is very tedious. There are many figures to counter check. There are many plans to generate. Quite stress being a first timer. STEP Testing is much better. I will get use to it.

I so much prefer STEP Installation. Basically, anything got to do with STEP, I like. Maybe because I am too used to and familiar with STEP. I do not understand Winquote at all. Winquote is to generate policy details and value. I cannot imagine for the next three weeks I will be doing Winquote Testing.

2008-02-01T10:44:00.000+08:00

More of the approval for the normal package last friday have been approved by the respective head of section. All I have to do is update the complete date and follow up with the status of request.

Our LO, Mr Oh came to visit us today. It was a too short and brief visit because my in charge had to go for a last minute meeting. However, it is nice to see him.

Next week is Chinese New Year. Thus, port to production that needs to happen has to happen before next Tues so that no request will not delayed. I am trying my best to keep myself available all time

Many agents suddenly come to install their epad as there are no driver for them to self install. This causes a lot of complain as they need to travel to HQ just to get the epad installed. Wasting time

Usually there are nothing much in the morning. Agents come for installation when it is about to lunch so that they are able to leave their laptop for installation and go for lunch while waiting.

There are some request which suddenly become urgent. For example: Yesterday, it was a normal Project Office. However, today, it is an urgent Project Office. User will start rushing to get the errors rectified as soon as possible. At that time, I will surely be on my feet to get the necessary approval fast. I have to be alert.

2008-01-25T10:43:00.000+08:00

Due to the problem we had last week, my in charge made a underwriting for all agents who wants to do STEP Installation. All agents must sign the underwriting before installation.

I realised that many agents never read the underwriting before they signed. Thus, I urged the agents to read especially when they are leaving the laptop/tablet. I will personally emphasize impt points.

I anticipated today to be busy day because stage testing is open. All the bug or error that have been rectified will be stage to testing. Thus, approval is needed from various Head of Department.

Now, I understand the different between request type data change and enhance. All this while I have been creating Project Office blindly without understand the reason for creation.

IT Admin has to leave urgently due to family issues. I helped her in every possible ways needed. Mainly, I logged Clear Quest for her, clear a bit of her emails especially urgent ones.

Busy days in a week
Monday
I have to ensure that all Head of Section from the various department have approve the creation of Package Project Office followed approval by Information Management Department, Head of Section. Once all approval obtained, I will update the complete date for IM Quality Assurance to proceed. Usually, this is take half the day.
Wednesday/Thursday
Staging is opened for testing. To port to staging, approvals need to be obtained from various people Head of Section. If their approval are not obtained fast, it will delay the porting. This will create unhappiness among users. I have get them to approve. That will take me whole day as the Head of Section will always be away for meetings.
Friday,I have to wait donkey hours for package Project Office to be sent to me. If it never arrive to my inbox by 1630pm, I have to start asking. There are altogether 2 types of package; enhance and bug. Every normal package consist of 10 or more Project Office each. For urgent package, it consist one project office but have to be rectified immediately.

2008-01-18T10:42:00.000+08:00

I need to do housekeeping for last week emails. I ensure that I do the necessary follow up. The intern who took over me did a great job and never want to go through the stress anymore.

There is a monthly meeting today. After the meeting, I was in a loop for a lot of emails regarding some changes that was discussed during the meeting. To be honest, I am quite lost and cant proceed.

I decide to clear my doubt so that I am able to proceed. However, I realised that the new implementation have not been broadcast yet. I will use instructions from the emails to proceed in future.

I waited for an agent to collect his laptop till 7.30pm. I called his hp many times, no answer. When he finally called back, I could not hear him. I called him again but he off it. I smsed him and leave.

We formally broadcast that STEP version 3.1 is launch today. STEP 3.1 consists of a new policy called Vivolife. Many agents would like to sell this new policy. Thus, many came for installation. Busy!

Continuing from Thursday...

On Friday morning, I called the agent again but he again never picks up his phone. Later, he returned my call saying that he will collect his laptop in the afternoon. When he came, I update his STP version to 3.1 which happened to load quite slowly as he is using VMWare. I think he was in a hurry again. After 3.1 is successfully installed, I do a short test submission when he realised his pen is jutting out. I still continue with my test submission while complain about the faulty that he saw. He claimed that the pen was fine when he left it here but now the pen is spoilt. I was quiet when he was complaining because I was thinking about what happened to the pen before today. Unfortunately, I cannot recall anything as I had too many laptops to handle that Thursday. Then, he looked for my in-charge and wanted to complain. I really can’t recall what happened to the pen. I asked the other interns no one remembered anything. I definitely know that I would not purposely spoilt his pen. I didn’t even attend to his laptop. It just happened that I am able to stay back to wait for him that Thursday and attended to him on Friday. When my in-charge asked me questions about the faulty pen, I could give her a confident answer because I really can’t remember. He quickly leaves the place after saying that he wants compensation. I felt really bad as my supervisor decides to close the case by compensating using her own pocket money. That made me felt worse. I am just an intern but I gave trouble to my supervisor.

2008-01-15T14:38:00.000+08:00

I love being around chocolates....

Chocolate..chocolate and more chocolate....

2008-01-11T10:39:00.000+08:00

I am so glad that I finally have a proper workstation. The new environment is an open area. I think I have a perfect seating position. I got a big window behind for me to rest my eyes.

Agents want to go through the process of installation. Sometimes our workstation may have many agents coming for installation. This is considered as crowding so we have to shift to a workbench.

The workbench that we are currently occupying is needed for testing. So we have to move again to another workbench which is very near by. I hope that will be a fixed workbench for us.

My in charge asked me to really confirm with her if I am going to extend my stay at NTUC Income. One of the reason why I would like to extend my stay is because I need to hand over my current job to someone else before I could leave the company in peace. I think it is not fair to just leave the job like that without handing over. My in charge will have a lot of problem.

2008-01-04T10:38:00.000+08:00

Whenever, it is half day, There arent a lot of work to be done because everyone is in a mood of holiday. We had a little gathering in the office before we proceed home to celebrate Christmas.

There are many work to be done. A lot of pending cases needed to be logged. At this point of time I can hardly have time to breathe. I dont like people to rush me so I have to do it before being asked

As there were many cases logged yesterday, I must ensure a follow up on these cases. I must ensure that they are approved and followed up by the respective support. I must be on stand by in case.

We are shifting to a new level today. I assisted the IT Admin in the shifting procedure. I packed unused PC. I ensure every workstation is completely clean. It is a nice new environment.
After a long time doing Project Office and Clear Quest. Now, I understand what it is really about. Any bug or error in a system have to be proposed meaning Clear Quest have to be logged. Clear Quest has a form for the bug or error to be entered and a CQ No will be generated. Once the proposal have been sent, an IM officer will look into the matter and see if the bug or error can be solved. If the bug or error cannot be solved by the IM Officer, a Project Office will be updated so that the vendor which is Ebao will look into the matter futher.

2007-12-28T10:37:00.000+08:00

I admit that it has been a slacking day for me. Almost no important emails for me to execute. I very bored and cannot wait for the day to end. It's half day today.

After the holiday, everyone is back to their working mood. My inbox were quite flooded with emails for me to do a follow up. However, I was a bit unwell today. I am not able to finish some of my work.

STP needs to communicate to server. When the server is down, it affects everyone using them. STP Helpdesk will have many calls from IAs. We had a busy day. IAs do not accept that the server is down

Many are shifting to a new level today. I helped the IT Admin a bit here and there to ensure that the shifting when smoothly. We cant shift yet, maybe we will be shifting next friday.

Last month, my supervisor asked whether I would like to extend my stay here at NTUC Income. I did not give her any answer as I am still unsure. This month, my in-charge asked me the same question and it got me thinking further. I definitely like my stay here. I also like the people here. I dun mind extending my stay here but for how long I am able to stay. I am feeling easy and relax only because it is stuck in my mind that I am working here for 3 months. I am still thinking.

2007-12-21T10:36:00.000+08:00

The whole dept will be shifting to level 4 soon. I am working very closely with the IT Admin. I helped out in every admin work possible. Sometimes I enjoy being busy, the day goes by faster.

IAs with problems with their laptop during training come over to our side to get it fix. Many came without appointment wanted to be served first which is not fair to those who make appointment.

Some IAs do not have the basics in knowing how to use computer like shutting down. Some eagerly wants to attend classes but some (especially those who are aged) do not feel the necessity.

We will be shifting to a new place soon. I cannot wait to have a workstation on my own temporarily. The current workstation is a bit cramp but we are definitely close and bonded having to seat cramply
During Mid Sem briefing in school, Mr Lim Kok Hwee asked us to ask our supervisor our progress. However, our supervisor is always very busy so we asked our in charge instead. Our in charge said that she is happy with our progress and we always meet her expectations. She does not have anything bad to say about us yet.

2007-12-14T10:36:00.000+08:00

We note which laptop/tablet pc that does not enable us to install STP. The reason being is we must feedback to IShop (a store that sells laptop/tablet pc to IA) not to recommend these machines.

Acer vendor came and asked us to do step installation on their laptop so that they are able to duplicate into different laptop. However, some installation fail. They will rectify it. It is a good tot.

My jobscope is STP Installation, Helpdesk. I ensure that I excell in my jobscopes before helping others with other troubleshooting. Sometimes I am a bit reluctant to help to install other softwares

Being young and vibrant, we interns suggest to have a little gift exchange during our dept christmas lunch. Our idea were greatly supported by the other staffs. Even our supervisor was involved.

Our dept christmas lunch was fun. All from Business Analysis, Ebao Team, Interns and Internal Permanent Staffs gathered. It is the only time we, interns get to know the other people from the same dept

It is always nice if people take a little bit of effort to help us with our problem. There is a signature problem when installting STP into HP TX 1000. We called the vendor if anything can be done but no response. Instead we have to come out with our own solution which did not please some IAs. Acer vendor actually took a little bit of time off to see thru the STP Installation process till it is successful. If not successful, they will try to solve it. Acer has made us and our IAs happy.

2007-12-07T10:35:00.000+08:00

I am excited today because they promise that I am able to pass updating of Clear Quest and Project Office to the new IT Admin today. However, later, I was told that she will come only on Wednesday.

Today is an important day. We are testing STP 3.0 on IAs' laptop. Before launching, we must ensure that STP 3.0 works well on the different laptop brands whether it is running on Vista/XP.

The IT Admin is Nur Aishah. She is pleasant and fast learner. I gave the user guide on how to update CQ. She is still new. Since I do some admin work for the company before I helped her

HP TX1000 is a machine that needs a virtual machine to run XP OS on a Vista OS. We always drag to install a very problematic laptop. In addition to our misery, IA using HP are as problematic.

I broadcast to involved people that Aishah will take over updating of CQ. That lightens my load. Now, I am able to fully concentrate on IT Helpdesk, STP Installation and Project Office.
Slowly, I am getting used to working life routine. I am getting bored of the routine actually but I have to like it in order to survive it. I cant drag myself for the next 3 months. I will suffer. With the current responsibilities, I have to look forward to the next day.

2007-11-30T10:34:00.000+08:00

There are 2 new interns today. I showed them around the company and introduced the important people whom they will be in contact with. I gave them user guides to read before I allow them to hand on.

It is all my fault. I didnt explain in detail to the STP Personnel what happened to the laptop. I allow him to do what he thinks is right. Luckily, I am not that in trouble coz her laptop is outdate

I am also helping on the IT Helpdesk. I answer to people's query about STP Troubleshoot or installation through the phone. Most of the time, my suggestion to them is, "Come down. We can rectify".

Laptops/tablets with problem filled our desk. Most of them have database problem, cannot find MSSQL. I will have to re install or recover database. I am lucky I have background about database

Next week I am able to hand over Project Office and Clear Quest to other people. I wait for that day to happen. I think the job is easy but the people involved with the job makes it look stressful.
Our main job is STEP Installation. People think, only installation, not difficult. Initially, I thought the same way. I also thought it has nothing got to do with what I am studying in school. I realised that mere knowing how to install is not enough. Not all installation is smooth. Usually during installation, there are problem such as SQL Problem, free hard disk, computer lag and .NET Framework Problem. I am glad we are taught in school school regarding all this.

2007-11-23T10:33:00.000+08:00

Some emails are not my problem. I delete or ignore. Now, I understand that emails are important. I need to be updated on the progress of every request. I also MUST read emails from top to bottom.

I deal with Senior Exec or Managers. They want answers or results. When work is concern, you cant ask them, "How do I go about solving this case?" I must find answers myself. Worse, they want it asap. (I commenced my position as IT Admin)

There are cases pending for approval. I am suppose to monitor every cases to ensure that their status is approved so that other department is able to continue (My supervisor is always very busy. It is very difficult to catch.). Thus, my eyes are always on the laptop.

The working environment is very quiet and peaceful. Everyone seems to have a lot of things to do. They only face their laptop or pc. They hardly talk. However, Dawn and I are not used to it. Surviving

When it is about time to knock off, I seemed to have more mails than I have before lunch. When I am about to go home, I realised that every one has urgent job for me. I guess have a last minute habit.
I realised the importance of an email. From time to time, when you refresh your email, there are always email for you. There isnt a time where I am worried my inbox will be empty. In the company, emails are used to the extreme.

2007-11-16T10:31:00.000+08:00

The intern has already broadcast to the respective people regarding her job that will be passed down to me. The past weeks have been training and learning from the intern. Now, it is time to pass over

STEP Installation, Project Office and Clear Quest are the main job scope for me. On top of that, other updating works were given to me to complete as soon as possible. My days will get busier. (Follow ups are very important for Project Office in particular. I have to make sure that the requestor, requestor HOS and HOD, approver HOS, approve and update via To Do. Then I have to update the complete date. I will be in the loop for almost every email as I have to take note whether the PO is eligible to be closed.)

I begin to be more independent with the all the jobs that was assigned to me. Despite being trained for weeks, I still have queries due to the many many new problem. (Some how I was not given clear instruction, until I have to find out everything myself. If there are changes that need to be made to the PO, I have look for doris hoe. Add name of new BA inside CQ find Vanice Tham.)

My days got busy. Especially when the day is about to end. (Some agents said that they will be coming at 4pm but end up, they come at 5pm. We finished at 5.30pm. We have no choice but to work overtime. There are times where agents come after 6pm for installation. Some make appointments to come after 6pm. When we told them that we close @ 5.30pm, we threatened us to complain to our boss.) However, it is already stucked in my mindset that I have to finish all the that day's work that day itself. New problems and works everyday.

My day started by replying to the emails. Every morning is the same routine. Email is important and must try to reply promptly. After replying emails, I will continue with with my main job scope. (Emails are very important to NTUC Income.)
The intern that has been helping and teaching me is leaving soon. Actually I depend a lot on her. She always lightened my workload. I am also counting down the number of days she has left with NTUC Income. I ensure that I learnt every single bit of work around the office from her as soon as possible. As long as she is around, I have to make use of the opportunity. Frankly, I am still not confident but, like it or not, I still must continue the work for her. I hope to catch up soon with her. I still have to teach the future interns.

2007-11-09T10:29:00.000+08:00

I continued to do Clear Quest and Project Office as well as STEP installation. As the problem for the new software was solved, there was very few STEP installation troubleshoot. (We come out with FAQ so that we are able to know what to do when the same problem occurs.)

I continued to do Clear Quest and Project Office. I am quite confident with the assignment. There are not many STEP Installations or STEP Troubleshoot as the days goes by. (Doing installation and updating has been a routine and practice. I am getting better in doing the task. I do meet new people who are involved in my task. I get to know them professionally. Follow ups are important to my task. That will determine the service I give to my clients.)

Since the latest version for STEP was launched, IAs have problem installing the software. The IT Helpdesk received troubleshoot. IAs was advised to always come to us for software update. Safer. (Version 2.9 is needed to be installed inside every agent’s PC. If 2.9 are successfully installed, updating to further versions would not be a problem.)

IAs will make an appointment (I do help to answer calls from IT Helpdesk. They would either call to make appointment or call to tell us their STP Problem. If we are not able to assist them on the phone, we would ask them to come down to our office so that we are able to take a closer look. Some refused to come saying that it is very troublesome to come down. As a it helpdesk, I would really ask the kind of problem the IA/FC have. I must understand the problem and think of the solution spontaneously. If the solution cannot be done on the phone, I will advise the IA\FC to come to our office. I also do not want them to waste their time here. If the problem can be solved by the IA\FC themselves, I will tell them the solutions. Some IA\FC will email IT Helpdesk regarding their STEP Problem.) if there is any problem with their laptop. Most of them were happy with the service we provide to solve their problem. Some IAs is not easy so we have to be patient.
Dealing with working adults is different from normal adults. They tend to be more demanding. However, with the CMSK skills, we know how to handle them.

2007-11-02T10:27:00.000+08:00

I am supposed to continue with the same assignments which are STEP Installation and Update Clear Quest. Now, I have to pick up something new which is Project Office (the most active and ongoing task. Huge task).

Same assignment but I encountered different troubleshoot. Sometimes I am not able to settle troubleshooting so I will ask other colleague for help and ensure that I learn from it. (ask the vendor for help/it support) (ip config /release, ip config /renew, *income.*)

I update Clear Quest and Project Office. When the connection is low (problem encountered), I am not able to do update so more work. Thus, the moment the connection is up, I quickly do the update. I cannot delay my update. (I have to do OT)

Not much of STEP Installation. However, there are many requests to update Clear Quest and Project Office. As I need to finish updating by the day itself, I worked extra half an hour.

There is a new version of STEP (new version will come monthly) that was launched yesterday. However, there is a problem after IA installed it. There are a lot of STEP Troubleshoot. Plus, I still have to update CQ and PO. Busy day!
I learned that testing is important (we did not test 2.9 thoroughly. We did not try it on our own pc first before launching it. So there is a lot of trouble) as it would have to make sure that everything is working fine when a new version comes up.

2007-10-22T09:46:00.000+08:00

My jobscope is STEP Installation. I am asked to learn from other interns. I am given a step by step guide to follow.

Using the guide, I tried to handle STEP Installation. I faced problems (Troubleshooting) at first because different laptop/tablet has different installation ways (VMWare and Signature Pad and Tablet PC).

The STEP Installation includes wireless setup, install STEP software, install anti virus and remove old installation (install cleaner). Instead of only installing STEP, I have to do everything independently.

Jobscope: STEP Installation. I have to learn something new which is Clear Quest from the other interns because they are leaving soon.

I am actively doing STEP Installation (learn to multi task). However, I have to multi task as I am also doing Clear Quest. Besides attending to the insurance agent (answer their queries on STEP or recommendation on laptop/tablet) to install STEP, I also have to update Clear Quest

I learnt how to multi task (Club, school work, projects). I must make sure I attend to all the insurance agents who need help (positive attitude and patience) and I must also make sure I update clear quest. My job cannot be postponed the next day. It is best to finish that day itself.

2007-10-18T13:57:00.000+08:00

O Traveller
It is true that people say I have given my heart to you
But I say,
You have stolen my heart

Among the flowers and the bud
In every lane of the village
The 2 of us are getting bad names
On the river banks and housetops
We were laughing and crying together

Let people say what they will
Why must we tell people
What is true or false
You and I are enjoying the love
So come,
Let's sing and dance to celebrate our happiness

My heart says
You stay in my heart forever
My heart has blossomed too
You dun or know it
You believe it or not
I have reached my goal
That is,
I have found you

Listen to me
O My love
It is true that people say I have given my heart to you
But I say,
You have stolen my heart

2007-10-18T13:36:00.000+08:00

We finally got the happiness..
We were destined to find..
Our night of love have come to us..
The moon and stars will carry our legend..
From this benign starlight..
Lets seek our boon..
A lifetime of love and roses..

My Love,
My heart sings a love song for you..

2007-02-05T16:22:00.000+08:00

I GOT CHARMED FIRST SEASON..................!

I was super duper happy that I gt the dvd. Thanks to him.

Weekend!
We went window shopping together.Bascially we are just spending quality time. It has been a long time since my weekend was meant for him. He was trying his best to clear his guilt. He kept ensuring me that it will not happen again. Hai! I just dun know what to believe. Whatever it is, with my current situation I am considered lucky to have someone like him. If he is able to trust and respect me, then I think it is fair that I trust and respect him. That bitch will just have to accept the fact that she will lose him to me. Sometimes I cant wait for my weekend to start.

2007-02-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

26 January 2007

Happy 21st Birthday to My Sweetheart Jenny Goh Zhen Ni
I actually got pissed by the long walked to Jenny's bbq pit. I didnt have the mood anymore to continue with my day but I still keep up the spirit. However, I really have to rush home because I didnt tell my parents that I have a birthday party and I will home late. I believe in telling my parents about my late comings personally.

29 January 2007
This week and next week is 'THE KILLER WEEK' . There are a lot of projects to be handed up. Dawn, Sufen, Dom, Diyanah and I have practically no time for our love ones. Projects have flooded our brains, minds, feelings, thougths and hearts. We are panicking but still manage to give our loveliest smile ever. Hehe! Worst...I dun even have time for the INTSC anymore. I am no more an active INTSC Member. Sorry Marcus and YuanLong. I really regret not supporting Linux Day. To Jocelyn, YuanLong and Isabelle, I didnt contribute much for the interview but I really hope to work hard for OLTC. Sometimes, I feel so helpless and hopeless. I tot I am the best when it comes to multi tasking but...Maybe last time...Yes! Multi Tasking is my thing. But now.....erm...NO! I am becoming extremely LAZY. Seriously lazy. Lazy to the MAX. Lazy to wake up. Lazy to go for lectures. Lazy to go to for classes. Lazy to do projects/assignments. I am not kidding. I am no more so keen and have the wrong attitude towards school stuff. Why?!?! I am admitting all this because I am super duper angry with myself. In addition to that, I have been spending a lot of money within a week...WORSE! Within a day. Sucks! I hardly got so much income from my dad before but I am wasting all of it in a snap of my fingers. OMG! I deserve a smack on my ass. Argh!!!! Ya Tuhan, please save me.

1 February 2007

Happy Birthday to Qisheng and Ridwan!!

I was sitting down dreaming about him. Should I say that I have forgiven him?? I always try to dig out some fantastic idea why I should forgive him. Whatever he did was unacceptable. That bitch still looked for me to create childish havoc about him. For the past 1 month, we have not been contacting and meeting each other. He tried, a couple of times, to call me but fate is not with us. I always missed his calls. I guess it is not meant to be. However, due to some event, we meet again. I wasnt prepare to see him, especially, with her. They came to the meeting together. I almost tot that he have found someone new and really left me but....NO! I still play a big role in his heart. Hehe! I think he also plays a big role in my heart. However, I still remember what he did. I still cant forgive him. Later did I realise that he is worth forgiving. Yes he make a mistake which I cant easily forget but I think he is a prefect guy...for me at least.

He always understand me and my obligations (He knows that I have a lot of obligations and will never stop having one). He allows me to do things that deem fit me (He respect my abilities). He makes me think on my own and have my own opinions and thoughts (He trust and have faith in my decision). He accepts that I want to be independent (He knows that I am stubborn when it comes to independence). He never forget that he still have me as part of his life although we are not officially together (He knows that if he forgets me I will forget him eventually because I am too busy with my own stuff to think about my incomplete or forgotten love story). He doesnt want me to call or sms him at the time that he wants instead he prefers if he takes the initiative to make the call or sms (He knows that I dun like to be controlled because my school work and parents controlled me already)

2007-01-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday To Siti Maryam Kaman!!!

A pillow with Raul pics from Qisheng

A card designed by My Lovely Cousins

A make up set from My Aunties

A perfume set + A bag from My Parents and Sisters

A Ben & Jerry T-Shirt from MingShen

A Red Necklace from Alvin (Bestie)

2006-12-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

I dun understand why people like to make assumption about stuff and never want to open their bloody mouth to speak out. What is wrong saying things right to the face? Why must you wait until people come to clarify and make peace with you? How would they know what you are thinking about?

Do you really think by blogging or pulling a long face people would understand? Sorry. If you want to pull that kind of stun with me, It definitely wont work. I like things to be done openly and straight to my face. The reason is because it is more mature and responsible.

However If anyone wonder why am I doing this? Let me tell you that I believe in adapting to other people if other people is not willing to adapt to me.

For laughing out loud, you know it is kid's stuff to do all this. Why cant you take the courtesy to start opening up first? Must it be the same old people? What do you mean it is OVER? What do you mean no pt to amend it? Hello!! Dont you think after all that we have been thru this friendship deserve more that just a full stop? Pure selfishness.

Yes I Agree. Things have changed but why? I dun think you guys are reflecting. Let me suggest. Go do some reflection. If you think you have, NOT ENOUGH. Do some more. Please please dun let the spoilt child in you overpower you brains and heart. REflect MATURELY.

The reason why you guys dun want to talk face to face is because you never like opening up face to face. Not because there is no pt on talking face to face.

Please if things are gg the wrong turn be a sensitive and initiative human being and bring everything back to the right turn. I dun mind doing it. I will because i want us to be together again badly. But before anything could happen. You guys go and make the wrong turn by blogging those stupid childish things out.
How much time of ur conversation with each other is about fixing things back? For me at least, I definitely spend all the time talking about fixing things and understanding your childishness. Our mindset is to fix things but your mindset is all the abt the wrong doings that we have done to you guys.

It is okay if you guys leave us, lie to us, ignore us, the moment you guys feel as if we are doing those things on you guys, you flare the SHIT out of yourself. Scold F*** some more! You said the words HATE and OVER to easily already. You can Do it to ur boyfriends but not to us. We dun deserve all this shit. What the hell. Where is the fairness?

We are always talking about patching back but you guys are talking abt ending it. Who is wasting time now? How sweet of you to suggest that we put on a mask and get gg with our lives and Dun need to be TRUE. What a stupid beyond bewilderment suggestion.

U guys are transparent and last in everything we see?? Please lah dun put words in my mouth can??!! Dun be stupid...Clarify!! Understand others so that others can understand you.

We are more disappointed that our own people choose the clubroom to over us. Thanks. You proven it all. You guys are more interested in you boyfriends and each other. Call each other darling and dear or bestie. Arent we on par?? No one is high than the other. In our friendship we are all the same.

Please lor Burst out??!! Burst lah! Bitch us! You dun care if friendship is lost right? We also dun care anymore. Since you like it if friendship is lost??
There is no one to push you go lecture or do project. Enjoy all you want. I think that You dun care because your so called bestie or boy is with you.

I hope and wish that you will be alone one day. Anyways it almost happened if not because of your substitude. You can’t have all the people around you all the time you know. ALONE abit only want to die lah, leave this world lah. Silly girl. You die or leave this world, you will still be alone. What you trying to say?? Are you trying to attract attention??

You keep on saying no one care lah, not impt lah..Blah! Blah! Blah! Nonsense right? So selfish. You want people to be there for your feelings but you dun want to be there for people’s feelings. Argh! I dunnoe what you achieved by doing all this stupid stun.
You made me say all this. Dun blame me for being harsh. You start blogging all out eventhough I said sorry so many times. Fine!

There is always times to know everything. We are also human. There is a lot of things in our mind too you know. Not only you guys we think abt. There are also alot of people out there who needs our care and attention. Big Bullshit! Hai.

Tired. I said what is in my mind. Sigh!

2006-11-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

19th November 2006 (Sunday)

Happy 18th Birthday to Ms Dawn Tan Li Yen. Hope you have all the happiness in the world. One very important note YOU ARE NEVER ALONE. I will be there when you need me. Trust Me abt that.

Today I watch Vivah. The movie was damn sweet and romantic. I am really used to it but I paid already so I have to bear with it. This is one of the romantic movie where I bother to watch. Basically the movie has catchy dialogues. Every dialogues have their own depth meaning. The songs were meaning. Next I headed to Parkway to buy pants, t-shirts and sandals. Ate and chilled dinner at Swensens. I really used the whole Sunday wisely. For the first time, I had lots of fun on a Sunday. Now I cant wait for Monday. Haha!

Vivah

2006-11-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

18 November 2006
Today had a meeting with some charity guys. Then we had McD together. Later we continue with our meeting that goes from OLTC - Wk0 - Clubroom. I was so confused and the meeting was super messy that I stop taking minutes. Haha.

Last event of the day was.....Celebrating my Darling Dawn Birthday. We took a trip to Taka to have dinner at Seoul Garden. With me, around my table there was Andy, Ricky, Dom, Jocelyn, YuanTing and Zen. I can swear that I didnt take part in most of the cooking affair. I just had to sit down and relax waiting for people to serve me. Ricky, Dom and Andy served me very well. And they cook well too. Haha! Great to be able to be there with them. Not to forget sweet Joc is there to keep me company by talking to me, laughing partner YuanTing never make me laugh alone at Zen's jokes and nonsense and last but not least, Zen my greatest entertainer. In fact everyone around me loves me alot and I love them too. So far, they have never wipe the smile off my face. They are always the one accomodating to me. I feel soo bad and they never make me feel left out. I LOVE THEM SO SO SO MUCH. MUACKS! Looking forward in gg out with you guys again.

2006-11-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

17 November 2006 (Friday)

The last day of Director's Cup was SUPER DUPER tense. I was sitting on the very first row with the spectators. I was soo nervous and tense. The whole match, from the starting till ending was just too energatic. Anyways, it was a match between 209 and WeAreBack.Both team played very well but WeAreBack brought home with them the winning status.

However, the tension subsided when it was time for the MainCom, SubCom and Lecturer to kick some ass. Haha! For me, I definitely had lots of fun. I think it was the very precious moment for the MainCom to make another successful bonding with our EventHelper (SubCom). This time was made as a little thank you to our EventHelpers for they hard work.

As usual, we have our little mass de briefing before we go and have dinner. The day ended well. I have to keep in mind that I have to wake up early because I gt meeting tml. Hai. That is a MainCom Life.

2006-11-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

Stupidly. I woke up late today. I woke up exactly at 8am. Haha. I guess I was damn tired. I still went for class. Haha. Whatever!
Yesterday. First Day of Director's Cup. I dunnoe how to describe yesterday. I had fun watching the hot and spicy guys plus joking around with my sub comm. I am in charge of CapTain's Ball. The teams were all very competitive. There were a lot of misunderstandings here and there. However, the MainComms managed it well.

I am very disappointed with you. I just dunnoe why you behave that way yesterday. Of all the people in your team, why must it be you we are disappointed with? It doesnt hurt so much when other people make trouble. However, it breaks the heart when your own people try to make trouble. I tot you would understand us best. You have been with us for so long for you to understand our plight. But you choose to misbehave. Why?Why? I understand that you are not the kind of person who will say things out volunteerily. I even nicely approach you again to ask you to stop the nonsense and behave. You happily turn back the table at us. Thanks for all the friendship. I gave up. Up to you to decide.

2006-11-11T14:42:00.000+08:00

Today we celebrated Fiora's Birthday.

At 6pm, we went to find Eugene to see what did he buy for Fiora's. Our idea was too stay at the clubroom. When it strike 7pm, slowly everyone left the clubroom leaving me and Fiora. Later, Dom purposely called me out leaving Fiora alone. Eugene went in and gave wished her. Wee! A successful plan for the day. Haha.

Happy Birthday to my Cutie Pie Fiora. You are the loveliest gerl in town. Smile more.. :):):):)

2006-11-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!!!!!!!!
Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir dan Batin Kepada semua Umat Islam di merata dunia.
I woke very early to help my mum do some last minute touching up on the house decoration while she does her cooking. Great! Everything was done when my dad came home. We are just in time to seek for forgiveness from Papa, Mama, Aunties and Siblings. We enjoyed the food together as a family.
At Nenek's house, she is not done cooking but I am willing to wait because no one can challenge her in this area. As usual, we will watch TV. Chat with my cousins. Ya..
Going to my Nenek's house is one of the crucial house. My dad's aim very Hari Raya is to visit the houses where the elderly resides. I am proud of my dad's thinking. We actually try to make our visiting short and fast because...
Back at my house we have a little singing, dancing and chatting sessions. We really havoc. We did everything and anything we can do to make the time worth lots of memories. Almost everyone slept over at my place. I didnt slp as I was still in the Hari Raya mode. Hehe! Went to coffeeshop to chat around with my cousins. Die! Tml sch but I am still wide awake. HOwever, I had a short nap so that I wouldnt be so slpy at class tml. Haha!

Great Day and Years Ahead...
Selamat Hari Raya!!!

2006-10-23T15:27:00.000+08:00

Wee! School reopen. I am super duper happy. Gosh! I am damn excited today. The reason for all the wonderful feelings. My darlings and me are in the same class. We are back like year 1. Happy together. Sad together. Rara together. Worry together. Fun and love together. That how we manage to form MDDDS. Cool rite! The unlucky thing abt us is we are in groups of 5. So when we need to form a team for groupwork, we have to separate. SobSob. Luckily, I have Jonathan whom I know well and can be in the same grp as me. So Sufen, Jonathan and I + Fion are the same group. LoL!
I was damn shock that Shawn Ng, my dearest FilMore team mates is in the same class as me. Haha. He and I was genuinely shock.
Today is also my last day to fast. Tml would be Hari Raya. Wee! Cant wait to collect lots of green packet. Haha!

2006-10-19T20:11:00.000+08:00

Team Bonding Camp 2006

Empire : FilMore
Member : Shawn, Chun Yang, Alvin, Shirley, GuiWen, Joyce, Jonathan, Melvin, Fiora, Eugene, Ryan, Jenny, Aishah, Coburn, ZhenXiang, WeiGuang, Ivan and Nick
FA : Jonathan and Maryam

Wee! The camp that almost all of us been waiting for. There are altogether 6 empire. FilMore, Luigi, Ramone, Guido, Mater and McQueen.

I had lots of fun with my FilMores. Frankly, I miss them lots lots. If I had a choice, I would want us to be in the same group again. I think I have gone mad during the camp. I actually turned so flirty, horny and crazy throughout the camp. I just dun understand why. However, my darling FilMores entertain my nonsense and madness well. Most of them are very spontaneous, fun and much entertaining. They just go on and on about Me and my nonsense. They actually name me FilJuicy. Nice name but...NO! The name sounds wrong. I can say that they are very self-motivated. Most of the activities done was by their own effort. They tot of everything themselves and present it themselves. I am only there to guide them. Haha! I love my job. Just be there to take care of them and stick with them 24/7. I act like their mummy for 3 days.I love FilMore!!!!

F-I-L-More FilMore. F-I-L-More FilMore.

FilMore or FilLess
We dun care
FilMore or FilLess
We dun care
Coz we gonna touch
And coz we gonna feel
So run run
Before we touch you
Run run
Before we feel
What say you say I say
What say you say I say
Sua!
FILMORE

FilMore Oei!

2006-10-15T11:50:00.000+08:00

I didnt had any confident that today will turn out well. I had no mood to go. Everyone seems not replying. Still I brace myself and went to book the place. Using the latest news, I total the waitress there will be 30 ppl (my main comm, ex main comm and friends) coming. However the turn out rate was 8. Sucks! What the hell! Majority who is not coming do not have the initiative to msg me back that they are not coming. When I ask them, they claim that they tell other ppl that they are not coming. SO?? When I msg you to meet at the PasirRis control station at 6.30pm means I tot you are coming isnt it?? Dumb! Luckily there arent much chaos. The situation is still under control. My reputation is still in tact. In whatever case, I think people are blaming me the organizer for having a huge miscommunication with the rest. Whatever was the situation that time, we still have fun. We still meet our objective which is to celebrate Sufen's Dee's Justin's and Zen's birthday. Jonathan, as usual he spice up the atmosphere with Dee. Great to have him there. Jonathan has always been nice sweet and caring. Actually, sometimes, I think he thinks a lot about everything which is gd because you know he gave a lot of tot abt everything around him. It has been a pleasure meeting him.
I didnt know that Zen talks a lot. He talks non-stop. Only until his food arrived and he started eating, he kept quiet. He looks cute and better with his mouth SHUT! Haha! Guess what? HE HUG ME AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! For a friend, he gave you a different feeling when he hug you. It is really comfortable and you just feel so secure.
JUSTIN TAY....My God! He is the meaniest of the meaniest, the eviliest of the eviliest human that is living on this earth. He is always reserved and has nothing much to say about everything but.........you are not sure what his big brains are thinking. Beware of Justin Tay. Take care of yourself when you are near him. You may not know what he is upto. Justin is very dangerous. DuN think that I am saying this because he is only doing this to me. Dun be so sure. He may be planning on how to get you. Muahaha!
Ron and ZhenXing are 2 weird people. Nevermind. Whatever it is, I really wish to see them proving me wrong.That's all Folk!

2006-10-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

2006-10-05T11:09:00.000+08:00

Let me intro the 2 most IDIOTIC humans on earth.

The 1st human is the kind who cant take care of his mouth.
The 2nd human is the kind who doesnt understand my darling.

I think the 1st human is born like that. Cant help it. However, by any chance, he dares to open his mouth and say something wrong again to anyone, he sure will face some unforeseen consequences. I mean..Someone has to correct him. Right?? He has to know what is the right thing to say and what is the wrong thing to say at what point of time and to who is he saying it to. I will be more than willing to help him realise that biggest mistake of his.

The 2nd human behaviour is totally unacceptable. Before declaring LOVE or be a BOYFRIEND, make sure you understand the meaning and responsibilities respectively. In my opinion, the 2nd human is totally dumb about the meaning of LOVE and the responsibilities of a BOYFRIEND. Saying that you love the girl if different from showing that you love the girl. Knowing what to do in your relationship doesnt mean you understand it. It could be you assume it should be done like that. Please take note.

2006-10-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

Again and again you try your luck. Again and again you got rejected. However you should know that deep in my heart I really want to say 'YES!' to you. Unfortunately, I never could bring myself to do it. I just dun understand. I know that I really really love you a lot. I know that I wanna be with you. I love your company. I love your touch. I got peace just being by your side. You gave me all the security and passion that I desire in a guy. Everything about you, your scent, your memories and your love lingers around me.

Despite all that, I too know that I am best just being an independent girl. Depend on myself for most of the things in my life. I love the feeling of independance. The mere thought of being controlled by a guy scares me to death. I am not afraid of loving you coz I think I give you all my love without doubt all this time. I am just afraid of losing my freedom as a person. I am afraid that my life will lose its balance if a guy gets into the picture.

I got lots of things and people to comprehend which really need my attention. If I have a boyfriend, I want all my attention to be fully on him. I dun want other people to share attention when it comes to him. If you are my bf you have the rights to ask me for a full attention. However I am not able to give that rights yet because I got lots of stuff on hand.

I really hope you understand. All this while you have been waiting patiently. You close your heart to every other possible girl. I feel that I am doing you a big injustice. Your friends feel the same way too. I know but they are just not showing it in front of me. I wish I cld do somethings abt it but I am helpless now.

If we are fated to be together, we will be together. I believe GoD wont be so cruel to separate us after letting us meet each other, be friends and now love each other.

2006-09-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away
I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say

Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you

I don't want to go another
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our privated lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And I say

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say

I would like to dedicate this song to you because whatever is said in this song is abt you and me. We are gg thru the same fate. Whatever that comes, good or bad, happy or sad, I wanna stick with you. I wanna stick with you because I know that you are the best for me. This song potraits exactly how I feel abt you. I dare not confess anything but I just wanna to be with you. I dun want to lose you.

2006-09-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

Today....I tot I am gg to have another normal day. When I walk out of the building, I saw a familiar face. It's him. He is here. I went to him and he gave me the sweetest smile a guy could ever give. The look of his eyes show a lot of sincerity. I could feel his love for me. They were all true and the same. I have no doubt abt that.
m: what are you doing here?
h: I am waiting for the lady I love most. She is working here. Have you seen her?
m: I dun think so. Why not you try searching for her?? I am gg off. ByeBye.
h: OkOkOk. Why do think I would be here? Who else in this world I love?
m: What are you saying? Who are you talking abt? I dun understand. Sorry.
h: Why do you always do that?
m: Do what?
h: I have been waiting for you for 45mins. I haven neither eaten lunch nor breakfast. I tot of gg dinner with you to break your fast. This is the treatment after everything.
m: So sweet. Let's go.
We went to eat at TM. I was sosososo + very + termendously + extremely + very much + muchmuch happy. Nothing can describe my feelings best that day. I am serious. Everything looks so prefect. I may look calm and steady in front of him but my heart is beating with joy and I feel as if I am flying to heaven. He is so sweet and romantic. He made me so comfortable. He didnt give me a moment of awkwardness. Actually, with him around, even silence is makes me happy.I didnt realise so much have pass when I am with him. I allow everything flow and sailing thru time. I am feel so appreciated and secure with him. He loves to listen to me. I love to listen to him. I love to talk to him. He loves to talk to him. We are just so comfortable with one another. Actually. Just sitting down doing nothing, just staring at each other, smiling, laughing and holding hands is more that enough to make my day. My day is made because I am with him. We take a walk a while at the Tampines Park and we sat at the bench. Enjoy the everything the night could offer. Everytime I gop out with him, I fell in love with him again and again. He send me home. I dunnoe how to thank him so I gave a quick peck on him shoulder and ran off. Ahahahah!!!! I am so high. Wee!!

2006-09-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

I am seriously not sure of my feelings about today. Haha. Strange. I feel neither good nor bad. ActuaLLY I have no feelings about today. Despite the little little complications that I am facing I still feel nothing. I should really thank My Darling Dawn for helping me clear my complications. Haha. I decide to go back to school because I had to sign the minutes and make 3 photocopy. Silly me. I refuse to top up my bus card so I had to walk home from school. I was late in breaking my fast. The moment I reach home, my sister, mama and mummy was chanting "So Delicious!" "So Delicious!" "So Delicious!" "So Delicious!" "So Delicious!" "So Delicious!". They actually cooked a recipe from a show. It is said to be some Mexican food or something. To me it looks like turkish food. Haha! The food was really good.
Great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Let's Welcome our new Singapore Idol Hady Mirza.............Congrats!Dawn was really angry when she heard that I support Hady. As usual she goes..."MaryaM Siti Kaman! How could you support Hady. You shldnt support anyone of them." Haha. If all our Singaporeans are like LiYenDawnTan, I think there wont be such thing as people choice, votes or democracy. Haha! If she were to read this, she will go....."MaryaM Siti Kaman! How could you say something like that abt me?" I think I know her tooo well. Haha.
Dawn and I was talking abt break up. She is really lucky that she broke up with a guy name Jonathan Chung. The last time Sufen broke up with QiSheng. It was like a torture for the 5 of us. That time there is still this rift btw Sufen and Dawn+Dom. QiSheng didnt make it better. He make their situation worse because Dawn and Dom pitied him. More rift was created. That period of time was nothing but disaster for the 5 of us. When Diyanah broke with Idris, there was pretty much lots of silence from Idris. However I know a lot of things are happening btw them. Another disaster. When I heard that Dawn and Jon broke up, I was prepare for the disaster. Surprisingly it didnt come. Jonathan was very secretive and he surpress all his feelings. He was cool thruout that period. Everything was fine. Now...Dom and Ben...It is like waiting for the Volcano to erupt. Once it erupt. There will be another disaster. I hope Dom come back with a good and best decision. Hai. Why must this happen to the 5 of us??

2006-09-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

I am sooo angry. I am sooo piss. OMG! How could you even think of doing such dirty things to get my darling against me? I never tot you would do this to me. I am soo disappointed with you. I may forgive ur mistake but I will never forget. Your accusation and assumption against me has create a wall between us. I am very lucky that my darlings trust me more than ayou. What were you thinking when you say that to my darling?? Twisting my words. Changing the meaning of my intention. I tot so what other people hate you or dislike you or make use of you or make fun of you. I shldnt instead I shld always stay honest and be ur friend. I think it is fair If I treat you nicely You treat me nicely. I just cldnt believe my ears when I heard abt your stupid version of what I say. I totally hate you. I was very frustrated. If you are offended by me telling you not to send my darling, then tell me. Dun do anything to ruin my friendship with her. That is like stabbing my back and immature. I tot you are the rather sensible person who can think. But I dun think so now. I think you are unreasonable and rash. Just because you didnt get things your way. No wonder my darling refuse to patch with you. You can really be a pest. What you did was unacceptable and irritating? That is so you irritating. You are not and never a victim in this situation. My darlings and I are the victims to your idiotic ideas and own interpretations. I am lucky to be able to explain things to my darling before she gets the wrong idea. Whether she believes me, you made a dirty mistake that I dun think I cld ever imagine a gd friend wld do to another gd fren. You long lectures abt you being like this and you being like that are all bull shit. Dun worry I have forgiven you but From now on, I WILL NEVER BELIEVE A SINGLE SHIT THAT WILL COME OUT FROM YOUR MOUTH. Trust me. Once I say it. It's done.

2006-09-21T22:33:00.000+08:00

Die I was late again I was got up in a meeting There was a slight jam at Pasir Ris main road. JunHao gave me a ride so I could get to work but I was 15mins late. I could feel myself sleeping like a baby yesterday. I dunnoe why I feel so comfortable sleeping yesterday night. I slept quite early but I got a called at 5am in morning from bestie. He was to finish our talk that day but I was still in the daze. I didnt take note of whatever he said. When it's time I left for school. Great. Everything went well. All should be smooth. Im a busy girl In a busy world. I am very tired of doing the same thing. But what to do I need the money for school. Money is not everything but it is something. I dun want to be rich or need a wealthy husband. I dun want to be a Cinderella or first lady. I just need the enough money to support myself and not trouble my parents and aunties. I want to be the one supporting them with the money I got from my hardwork. I want them to enjoy their golden years.

2006-09-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I had to make a fast and unwilling decision. I am have been telling myself that I want to stop work at the end of this month. However, after much tot, I think there will be no harm extending till October. So when they ask me yesterday I told them that my contract ends 13 Oct 2006. I have done it. That will be my final decision.The whole day I have been watching VCD. Great show. I like. Then Alvin called to have our monthly chat. Whenever we had our monthly chat, we always talk about secondary school. I got something different to tell him. I feel that MY poly frens are great simply caring, loving and loyal. They believe in togetherness in sharing all happiness, sadness, worries, tears, stories with one another. I am proud to say I have true friends. People will say that my friends are very lucky to have me as their friend. But I shall say that they are lucky to have me as their friend because I am lucky to have them as my friends. Dominique is extremely lucky... I totally Miss my darlings...Sufen, Dawn, Dominique and Diyanah plus not forgetting Nazia. Hai..

2006-09-19T22:30:00.000+08:00

TuesdayI am early! Wee... Yesterday I talk to Dawn and Sufen about my neighbour. I was didnt realise that my mum was at the other room so I happily tell them the story. Die! What if she really hear what I say. DieDie! I always act as if I am not interested in him but actually I think he knid of cute. Die.....Whatever. As I am grounded I think I will go home right after work. All my night life gone. Alvin is very busy with exam so I think I shant disturb him. I will wait for him to call me instead. I hope remember that is friend is waiting for him company. Hehe.Fasting month is coming soon so. I was thinking how I am gg to survive. Now when I am sleepy or moody I will take a break by drinking, munching and washing my face. If I am fasting then I think I will have a problem I have to start controlling myself. Ya! I have to.Yesterday when Sufen and Dawn were conferencing. We actually voice our relief that the NMDDDS are back together again. Seriously I have been wanting only this since the year 2 start. We just click so well with each other. Haha. I cld guarantee and confident that we love each other like sisters.

2006-09-18T13:30:00.000+08:00

yesterday i slept really late. i was on the phone with dawn when ying called for my schedule and update me on the next month event. i cldnt even wake up to watch real madrid play today morning. sobsob. as expected, today I came late haha i had to give the reason that there was a jam hehe kalau puasa ni mesti batal tml. hai. if i were to tall mum about this i am sure she will reprimand me my fault. i have to lie save my own face and ass. honestly who wants to wake up early to come and work in an unfriendly and welcoming environment. today is also the day when JOnathan will be leaving us to Bangkok. I really hope he has fun. to think about it I rather sent him then come to work. seriously i am bored of the working environment. i think i need a change of place. each I come to work the think that cross my mind would be when can i leave when can i leave I feel really bored around here I gt no one to talk to. really reallly cant wait to get myself out of here. okay let me see after work i am gg to meet Farabi n help him with DBSY. I hopE i can get him to understand and at last pass the paper. That's my aim. bUT i must make sure that I reach home before 9pm. today i must sleep early so that I can go to work early tml. I think I am a lazy pig. I cant wake up early. Lazy to do housework. Hai. What will become of me?? Now Looking at my house I think we are definitely ready for Hari Raya except my room. No worries I will clean it when the time comes. Haha!! Got to work...

2006-09-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

In the 18yrs 8mths of entire life, He is the first MaLAy guy I ever look at. He is different. Very different. He is cute in his own ways. He is not a very typical Malay guy. Maybe because of his maturity level he does look or act like typical Malay guy. Hai. Anyways he looks like one of my guys. Actually all my guys has quite the same features. Haha. Coming back to him. He is my neighbour. The first time I took notice of him was in the lift. He asked me whether I was okay as I was limping into the lift. When I said that I was okay, he gave me the sweetest side smile I ever since in A Malay guy. I seriously almost fainted. I have to keep my composure as my reputation is at stake here. We talk very a bit. Then I started limping out. He actually offered to send be to my doorstep. Reluctantly I say NO. My mum wouldnt like it at all. Trust me. To her all my guy are wrong. From Raul to Arjun Rampal to WhoSoEver...Except Alvin. Hai.That is not just the end of our meetings. There is more. Actually all because of the lift. We happened to come home about the same time. From then on, no matter how far or near we are from the lift, we will actually wait for each to get into the lift. Surprisingly, that particular day, I wanted to check the letter. I tot he must have gone up first because there is also a lady waiting for the lift. When I turned, he is still there. I felt so happy. In fact I frankly ask him why he never go up first. Then he said, "I was waiting for you." Unfortunately or Fortunately the next lift that we took was stuck or a general statement the lift was jam. cool. a normal reaction, he press the emergency button. After that he asked whether I am alright. With him around, why wouldnt I be alright???? Silly qns. We waited for some people to come to our rescue. He try to press the bell a couple of times. Tired. We stand there chatting. That day we got to know about each other's background. That was the best day of my life with him. However that was the last day we actually took the same lift together. Nowadays, once in a while, we will coincidentally take the same lift or just happened to see each other. Boring.

2006-09-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

m: my friend said something about me.
h: what's the something about you??
m: he say that if i were to get thinner a lot of guys will fall for me because i have good personality
h: no not true. i am in love with you. alvin is still your bestie. perry still remembers you. micheal think you are one in a million. we do fall you what. did that someone say this on your face?
m: do you think he dare to say this face to face with me??
h: that someone is a "he". i tot so. you wouldnt be pondering if it was a girl who said it. i dun think you need to slim down or get thinner. you are good and cute just like the way you are now. i shall pity the guys. they will get nothing but some harsh rejection.
m: talking about urself.
h: what do you think??
m: i think........
h: yes??
m: shut up. the point is i am not gg to change myself. i want a person to like and love me the way i am. accept me for myself.
h: i feel after getting into a relationship. things will change. your believes and principles will go haywire. that is the huge of the huge reason why we are not together until now. still hanging and slack only as FRIENDS.
m: what's the problem with that?? whether our status is friend. we know deep in our hearts we feel for each other. we like each other remember.
h: you always say that. you know i wont change you even a bit. dun you trust me?
m: great. we will fight again. abt trust love relationship blah blah.....suxs!
h: i never want us to fight about this. but ...
m: excuse me. if you are tired of waiting, tired of being like this, i am not stopping you to go after another gerl.
h: doesnt solve anything. i want a girl to love not JUST be my girlfriend.
m: huh?? the girl you love is also your gf what?? what toking you
h: haha not telling you
m: whatever. i grow bigger every year but you still like me the same. there lots of girls out there that will sure be your gf with just one attempt. are you lacking of girls in school.
h: not really. there is a grp of girls thinks I am gdlooking. bollywood star. Arjun Rampal.
m: then i think you shld stay away from them.
h: why?? anyone of those girls can be my gf with just an attempt what and you said i can find another girl
m: if you are tired.........
h: same
m: are you tired already?
h: nope. just testing you. dun make such big declaration when you dun mean it
m: that's my line...

2006-09-06T21:27:00.000+08:00

I like the way you entered my life
I like the way you hooked my heart
I like the way you try to tempt me
Every way of yours speaks a thousand words
You have intoxicated me

I like the way you looked into my eyes I like the way you smiled at me I like the way you bring peace and tranquil to me I like the way you keep your secrets Every way of yours keep me falling in love with you You have enthralled me

Sometimes you made me cry
Sometimes you made me laugh
I was fine being alone
Why did you come to fill the loneliness

2006-09-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

I like the way you entered my life I like the way you hooked my heart I like the way you try to tempt me Every way of yours speaks a thousand words You have intoxicated me

I like the way you looked into my eyes I like the way you smiled at me I like the way you keep your secrets Every way of yours keep me falling in love with you You have enthralled me

Sometimes you made me cry Sometimes you made me laugh I was fine being alone Why did you come to fill the loneliness

2006-09-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

I woke up early to send him off. Just another guy that come and then go. Whatever! Use to it. Good Guys are strange. Sometimes they are there forever. Sometimes they just disappear forever. Hai! I am waiting for the next guy to leave.
I went home to get a little sleep before I head to school for INTSC Meeting.
There was not much to talk about today. We had to do a project budget breakdown. That's about it. Then together with Dawn Dom YuanLong Isabelle Jocelyn and Marcus, we went to some IT Fair. On the way there Dawn and Dom wanted so much to meet Micheal Tan WenJun. I will really try my best to get a picture of him. The thing is I am always on loggerheads with him. His stupid ideas can drive me CRAZY!
The IT Fair was full of people. I went to check out the HardDisk. Soooooo Cheap! 300GB for only $200--. What the Hell!
Later we head back to Tampines. On the way back. The three of us tot of a lot of things to do for the holidays. Update that some other time. I am so so booked next week. Dun bother looking for me. Hehe!
On the way back home, Ying msg me to say that Mike is gg back to German for personal reasons. I dunnoe why I think I am gg to miss him. Miss his craziness. Miss his stupid ideas. Contridicting myself.
My family and I went out for dinner to celebrate Pital's birthday and Teachers' Day.
Happy Birthday Mummy Pital!
Happy Teachers' Day!

SitiMaryamKaman(SMK)

2006-08-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

I went out with my Darlings today. Happy and excited. Raining heavily. I met Dawn Sufen and Diyanah at Paragon. We did a little shopping. Then we had to head to Plaza Singapura to meet Ben and Dom. We waited for Alex and decide to watch Devil wearing Prada. After the movie, we head back to Plaza Singapura to eat. After eating we went home.
I am not feeling so good and I am a bit upset. I can help it. I felt nauseous and giddy. I have been having it late. A huge NO to Alex and everyone else. I am not Pregnant. I cancel all my night outings.I am really in not mood for any stars.
I was upset to go home alone. What the Hell! It doesnt happen to me before. I always had someone to go back with me. My journey home was boring. Sucks Big Time!
When I reach home, I saw him. He was waiting for me. He felt curious because I decide not to go out with him. He wants to check whether I am ok. Seeing his care and concern. I said, "Ok! Let's go and watch stars".
When we reach our destination, the ground was wet so we decide to stay in the car. Lucky he drove the car that has a movable roof. Cool. Enjoying the night breeze and away from all the complication that have been happening. I feel so safe and loved with him. He is My Prince Charming. Hai! Unfortunately, there was no stars at all. A few. Small ones. Haha! After talking we head home. He has to prepare to leave tml. I am sure sending him. Okay! GoodNight PrinceCharming!

SitiMaryamKaman(SMK)

2006-08-30T02:21:00.000+08:00

EXAM OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HaHa!!

Hehe!!

Huhu!!

HoHo!!

Hihi!!

HOLIDAYS!!!!

DBSY..
Manageble. Can pass. Satisfied.

OOAD..
Easy. Can pass with a B+ at least. Happy.

OPSY..
Whatever. Can pass but no so good grade. A bit sad.

DSAG..
Easy. Estatic. Can pass with a B+.

I am not gg to spoilt my holiday by remembering my exam. Now my focus is work, enjoy, money, birthdays, TeamBondingCamp. OMG! I am still very busy.

Please book my 1 week in advance before making any appointment. I may turn you down if you tell me last minute. Sorry. Thank you for your understanding and cooperation.

SitiMaryamKaman(SMK)

2006-08-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

Exam!!!!!!!!

I have been gg to school to studying with my darlings, Alex, Nicholas, Farabi and Cecelia. I think I am able to finish understanding by Friday, start to memorise and know everything before each paper. Good Luck Maryam! Fortunately I am also fasting so I hope that Allah swt will take pity on me and help me thru this two weeks with a clear mind and heart. Thank You in advance.

Topics Tested:
DBSY
OPSY
OOAD
DSAG

I would like to wish everyone lots of luck for exams. MuackMuack! HugHug! SayangSayang!

SitiMaryamKaman

2006-08-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

I think I should get a V-Neck Black Dress.

Because....

When you're out and about, enjoying all that life has to offer, you know how to let your style shine through without being overly flashy. That's why the perfect little black dress for you should be just as timeless and grounded as you are.Down-to-earth and genuine, you seem to be one of those rare individuals who understands that it's what's on the inside that really counts. By keeping your style simple and pretty, people focus on you, not the clothes. And that's nothing short of fabulous.

2006-08-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

My Suitable Colour is Pink Chiffon.

There's nothing saccharine about you — your sweetness is one hundred percent natural! A gentle, thoughtful romantic like you must be paired with a color that's soft and warm — but still has a subtle sophisticated sheen. That's why Pink Chiffon is the perfect color for you! You're probably known for making the most of every situation and trying to see the best in people. But while you may be cheerful and innocent at times, you're nobody's fool. You may see the world through rose-colored glasses, but you can still see, after all.While you make wise insights time after time, it's probably your good nature and perpetual optimism that are what you're known for and what make you a joy to be around. Even those who sometimes make fun of your Pollyanna-like proclamations will turn to you when they need a friend and some cheering up. So keep pink, Chiffon. With you around, the world's a better place!

2006-08-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

I took this test about How Would I Spend My Last Dollar? The test result says that I should splurge on A Shopping Trip.
Explanation:-
Bags and shoes and jeans, oh my! Whether you adore your duds designer or down-to-earth, you're a seasoned shopper who always goes after what you want. From the thrill of the hunt to the victory of the find, you know that there's nothing like a little retail therapy to brighten your day.
You're a big believer in living in the moment, and you're not one to deny yourself life's little treats. Sure, you know when to take things seriously, but you always manage to have fun along the way. A free spirit with an optimistic streak, you're the first person friends call when they need a laugh or a pick-me-up. Stay stylish!
Kinda crazy but I think I is true. I should do proper shopping with my Darlings. So long we never go out together. Missing you guys already. Maybe after exam. Haha

SitiMaryamKaman(SMK)

2006-08-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

Crucial Day! I went shopping early in the morning to find the best outfit. Go back home to bring the orange syrup and buffet tray.
When I reach sch, my mind was messy. I dun noe where to start from. Let me handle the programme bk. I got three fantastic helpers. I can now settle the Emcees without worry. The emcees are very confident ppl. Whatever. As long as they know what they are doing. I try to do what I can for the Audi. The little little coordinations with the help of Darren, YuanLong and again Nicholas. Ricky together with my great helpers helped me with the door gift and programme bk. I tried to play a bit with the lightings. Marcus and me settle the registration booth and tables for food.
Changing time. Happy with my outfit. Had a little problem with the shawl but later decide to keep as simple as possible. My makeup was great. Hair! I tied half. I look very simple and most importantly confident and properly. I dun think I am looking sexy or seduction in anyway. Great! Feel good. Look good. Now a Honorary Secretary of Information Technology Studies Club.
A short dry run before the real event commence.
I chat a little here and there with everyone. Look as friendly and welcome as possible. Definitely all the new MainComm aim is to show a good impression. Our SubComm really roxs! They are the ones who helped us a lot by lightening our workload. Thanks!
The real event..INTSC AGM AY06/07
Everything when smoothly. Hiccups here and there. However. Looking at the AGM. Everyone would agree if I say that the Audi Deco create a huge impact on all the guests. Everyone asking abt the deco. Proud of ourselves. Hehe!
After the event, We had lots and lots of phototaking. Still haven gt the pics from Dom and Mr Joshua. AGM OVER! Wee...

Exam Time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SitiMaryamKaman(SMK)

2006-08-15T12:10:00.000+08:00

I have been very busy with AGM since last week. I am glad that I had the door gift done before it is dued. Next on my list wld be the interior deco of the Audi, guestbook, invitation card and poster. I am very glad to have very cooperative group of people working with me. I manage to finish my invitation card and YuanTing on time with the help of my friends especially Nicholas. I must mention him personally because he is just the Best Designer. Thanks to Kat, Ricky, Ivan, Andy and Isabelle's brain for a successful guestbook. I practically didnt do anything for the Audi Deco. Sorry guys! I understand Ricky's plight on the Emcee script. Anyway it is like a early birthday present. I pity Jonathan the most. He gt MP and AGM to juggle. He has been very patient with us all. Although he never say anything, we shldnt take him for granted. President Jonathan is the BEST! I dunnoe why but I got this feeling that Everyone wants to impress him and be in his gd bks. I understand the reason but not to the expense of others. Do it at your own risk. Haha. I want to say sorry to Isabelle. I like the outfit but I think It does not suit me. I really have to go buy another. Hai

Signing Off
SitiMaryamKaman(SMK)

2006-08-15T00:27:00.000+08:00

2006-08-10T00:53:00.000+08:00

Some moron think I am Hot Stuff!

When you reach into the candy heart bag, there's no doubt you're coming up with a fire red heart that reads "Hot Stuff." It's not so much a label as it's your style — turning heads, getting numbers and raising room temperatures a few degrees when you walk through the door. You'd love someone who could match your flame-throwing ways, but so far, everyone just melts like wax when you turn on the heat. Got a romantic fireside dinner planned for you and your very own hottie? Better keep a hose nearby because sparks could start flying. And if you're still on the prowl, waiting to find someone who can hold their own against your undeniable sense of romance and action, keep a close watch. They're sure to come around soon when they see your "Hot Stuff" coming their way.

2006-08-08T12:39:00.000+08:00

When to watch fireworks. Brought Maya and Mar along with my friends. The journey to esplanade takes a lot of time. Very draggy. I enjoy myself though. When we reach the place, It was damn crowded. Everyone fight and rushing for the best place to view the fireworks. We are always on the move finding the right place which is never the prefect place. The fireworks was fantastic but I think I have seen better. After the fireworks, my sister and I when to enjoy ourselves else where. Maya was as usual not cooperative. When we got home, she made the rest listen to her story. And guess what? She succeeded. Everyone thinks that it is my fault now. I hate being in this situation where the adults always take consider her psychological story. Made me think as if she is a depression kid. And also I dun understand why some poeple's comments and words so weigh a lot of weight. Hate that kinda of people. Slowly I will fix them. Trust me!

2006-08-02T10:38:00.001+08:00

Many nights I cry
Wishing for you to be mine
Tears dropped bit by bit
So I got up on my feet
My heart still hurts
By the pain you have incurred
Everyday I pray
For sun to shine Its ray
Showing me the path I have to take
That is the decision I have to make

The bond that we shared
The tears that we shed
The fights that we fought
The love that were taught
Enduring all the hardship
To make strong our fiendship
It is something I have always cherish
And make sure it will never perish

I swear
Like a shadow that is by your side
I will be there
For better or worse
Let death do us part
I love you with every beat of my heart
I swear

2006-08-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

I am so happy today. I just realise that we are all back together slowly. One day we will be like how we used to be in year 1. I terrible miss us so much.

INTSC separated us. INTSC patched us. Thanks. I wldnt let anyone or anything break us again. I hope you guys cherish the friendship as much as I do.

To Dawn Tan Li Yen
I miss us talking on the phone like last time with you. That Saturday brought back those memories. You have got to be strong to endure the step you have already taken. I am sure we will be there to support you. Just remember. A guy is a like kite. The more force you use to try to pull it towards you, the string that you use to pull it will sure break. Be smart and firm in controlling the situation. I think you are the only one who I am comfortable in getting yellow minded with. Hehe! Rahh!

To Dominique Yim Wai Sum
I really had a good chat with you and Dawn that Saturday and Friday night. I dun really talk to you very much the last time. Now I think I am regretting it because you are so lovable to talk to. You always bring us back to the topic and not let us stray away. Focus Girl! You are very lucky coz you have got a great BoyFriend (Yes Ben, I am talking abt you. Although I cant believe I am saying this.). I hope you are able to cherish him. You have always been a darling. My favourite drink is still AppleTea.

To Lim SuFen
NeedLess to say. My dearest Dr Lim Sufen. We are always together in everything. We became good together. We became evil together. We hate the same persON. We like the same Guy. Fortunately, we dun fall for the same Husband. I really wish you could be in your fantasy world forever. However, I think we all need you to share the 'burden' on our head. So what you are not in MainComm? You are still my Darling. Your support will be most appreciated. Thank you in advance.

To Nur Diyanah Zelani
The only Friend who loves debating with me. Now she is polluting Alex's mind with all the Malay translation of all the part of the body. The private parts in particular. However, she is a SweetHeart. She is always patient with all the hardship she's been gg thru. I know that she upset with a lot of things that has been gg on especially between the 5 of us (I was upset that you cldnt join us). Maybe you cld open up someday and let us know you unhappiness. I just dun understand you now.

2006-07-29T23:40:00.000+08:00

I learnt something that I cldnt forget during LTC. All the girls would agree with me. Nowadays, Ladies dun expect a lot of things from their Husbands. Just few minor achievable things.

5th - Must earn 5 digits salary
4th - An expensive car with 4 wheels
3rd - 3 storey house
2nd - Maximum 2 kids
1st - I am the only 1 in his life
0th- He shld give me 0 problems

2006-07-28T12:00:00.000+08:00

Today is a disaster. Today marks the end of the week as well as our nightmare. DBSY Project Submission.

FirstLy Alex. He has been a sweetheart by helping me with my module. Thank You so much. I dunnoe how to return you that favour. You have been very nice to me since the time we really got to know each other. I really felt bad seeing you doing it for me. I neither understand nor know why you wanted help me because you sure know that there are more people out there who needs you more than me. However, I really appreciate it. At least for once I feel more important than others..Hehehe! I hope after all the stress and tense we had, it will be all worth while. I just wish you all the best for your future endeavour and pray that you can able to take all the pains and waits strongly.

SecondLy Cecilia. Thank you for being patient thru out the last few days. I dunnoe what are you gg to do after all that had happened but I wish you all the best. I know things will be awkward but I hope you will handle it the correct way and maturely.

Thirdly Diyanah. I know that you are offended and unhappy towards my attitude to you the last weeks. However those attitude that I gave you is for your own good. Basically it is for you to realise that you are not handling your problems the way it shld be handled. You are important to me and the rest so stop thinking otherwise.

LastLy to my DBSY group members. I really enjoyed doing project with you guys. I know we have been gg thru a lot of stress but I hope that it will all be worth while. I am gald we finish the project. Hope that we cld be in the same group for future projects.

Lots of Love
Siti Maryam Kaman(SMK)

2006-07-27T10:32:00.000+08:00

I am confused about a lot of things. I just realise that I am unhappy about certain things. Damn! I cant slp last night. A lot of things are in my mind. From Family to Friends to Projects to Juniors to Publicity to Presidency to Leaders. Alot of things Right! I dunnoe who shld get my attention first. Everything is important. Everything needs my attention. Alot of things happen yesterday. I dun want to care but it is not me to not care. I have to take things step by step. I need people to understand my situation. I dun have all the time in the world. I got a lot of things to attend too also. If you feel that I were to ignore you or dun care about about you, You are wrong. I do care about everyone I meet. Just that I dun really have the time. I promise that next week will be a better week for all of us. I love see people happy and smile. That makes me happy.

Sometimes I miss being around my darlings..
Dawn, Dominique, Diyanah, Sufen
SomeHow I feel that things are not like before
Despite the absence certain people
I always make myself feel better by saying...
SomeDay we will find our way back to how we use to be..

Signing Off
Siti Maryam Kaman

2006-07-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

I dun know what happen yesterday. I really cldnt figure it out. I dun understand why she thinks that way. It is not lyk that at all. I dun think I meant it that way. I just change place because Sufen says that the seat is being reserved for someone else. What is up with this new frens and old frens things? She is never my old friends. She will always be a close friends. Nothing less. Old friends can be forgotten. New friends are just remember.So far I tot things are ok with her. She never had complaint about the happenings. She never sigh but I dunnoe why yesterday things were different. Maybe I never really take a step back and take a look at how is she feeling about our friendship. Not that I dun care about her but her talks and conversations are usually about her friendship with other ppl. Ppl who are not us, her MDDDS DArLINgs! I tot that she is ok with us just being like that. Now i really dunnoe what is she thinking about. I wanna hear the problem for her mouth. I wanna know her tots about this.

2006-07-14T11:02:00.000+08:00

I was very tired. Today..I started my day by listening to my new downloaded songs..APEL2 class started and it was damn boring..
I was surprised when I saw Tan Li Yen reaching class earlier than anyone else...Gosh..Weird morning!!..
I was more surprised when Cecilia came with a brand new appearance..She was wearing pretty casual..Yesterday..she was having a bad mood..She looked so piss..Today.. she is so damn ready to go clubbing..Hope she had a great day later..Now she is praising herself saying that she very fast change her mood... that is only the reason to go clubbing..she is a kind of girl who needs time reflecting with herself..she feels better that way..She is the only one gerl who is willing to let me listen to her songs..such a generous gerl..
Later I msg Alex..who took so long to reply..What the hell...later I saw him at the ITAS canteen..Never invite me to eat with him...suits him then...In the lab he stared at computer like wanting to swallowing it..
Dominique was damn cool lah...she came only after the class..whatever!
Sufen..So sad her eyes is swollen..Pity her..NOW everyone is saying that she peeped at people bathing..Bags of Nonsense!
Diyanah..ALmost some elses camera..But Cecilia rescued it..LUcky her..
Jonathan always playing game..The whole week..PLAY GAME ONLY..hahahahaha
Benjamin has too much air he keeps on blowing at me..CRAZY IDIOT!!..hahaha
Now i am slacking in the lab..listening to music..waiting for time to pass..I am damn upset now..
I wonder what kind of hopes that i have been getting..
Sucks right!
Hopes that are not meant to be mine..
At least give me a hope and dun say anything about the hope..
I hate you man
WHatever!!
Sucker..
I damn hate you...
Goodness..
hOW i wish i cld slap you now!
Why give me hope when you dun mean it..
I dun want any of it...
Any of it..
i hate you
damn hate you...

2006-07-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Hopes are for people who deserved it.I think I deserves hope that can come true.

I am tired of living my life this way.
Sorry..
If you think that I am being stubborn..
I hate being in a hopeless relationship..
Trust me..
I need a friend more than anything else..
Hope you can keep that in mind..
I love having friends..
I love being with my friends..
I live a better life that way..
Pls think about my feelings..
I am tired of being treated this way..
What do you gain by doing this to me?